Bizarre food day

Yesterday was an odd day. I woke up really early with a sore back. I hadn't slept well and had no appetite for breakfast. I started the morning with coffee and once I got nice and caffeinated I started cleaning. Lunch time passed and was forgotten. I was so immersed in cleaning that I didn't even think to stop to eat something. By the time dinner time rolled around I was famished and ate way too much pasta and a greasy (but delicious!) pork chop. All in all, I should have planned better and not eaten all my calories in one meal. Live and learn eh?

Tomorrow is my husband's 32nd birthday. I get to go gift shopping for him this afternoon so I'm sure I'll get plenty of exercise while I traipse through store after store looking for the perfect items. He always get so weird about his birthday. Not like he's scared or angry that he's getting older, but...I don't know...anxious about gifts. He never wants anyone to get him anything (with the exception of me...he doesn't mind gifts from me, but only because he knows I'll get them anyways!) but he doesn't like people doting on him. He told me last night that he hopes my parents forget it's his birthday. He also doesn't want a surprise lunch or dinner sprung on him like it was on me. I understand that; who wants to be stuck somewhere they don't want to be?

It'll all go okay though. I'm hoping once these vacations and three day weekends are over I can get my shit together and really start focusing on losing. This 'eat good for a few days, blow it for a few days' crap has got to stop. I think the only thing I'm succeeding in doing is throwing my body out of whack.

Oh, I almost forgot! My mother in law called yesterday to let me know that the surgery is a go and that she's planning on putting her ward in a home for five days so she can have the surgery and have a few days to recover. This works out for everyone because she gets a few days extra break with just her husband around and I don't have to put anyone before anyone else. Now I just hope that nothing gets in the way of her getting surgery. There always seems to be something. She's been up a few times for surgery and it's fallen through for various reasons.

I hope everyone has a great weekend; enjoy that extra day if you get it off!

Normalcy

Paul's back at work and I'm...sitting here catching up on everything and planning the day. It was awesome having him home, glad he's back at work today though! I can't seem to get anything done when he's around. Not due to him being clingy (which used to be a very real problem) but because I really like spending time with him. Who'da thunk it?! I get to spend extra time with him next week too, because he's off for Memorial day. Hope another long weekend doesn't do me in like this one did! When my schedule changes, my good eating habits hit the road.

Now it's time for a confession. I'm a daily weigher. I've heard that it's not good for you mentally to see your weight fluctuate so much (because it does!) but I weigh first thing in the morning and leave the scale alone for the rest of the day. I can't help it! I'm down by almost two pounds since yesterday so I'm convinced that I was holding on to a lot of water weight. The temperature here has soared in the past week and when it gets really hot, I hold on to fluid. I don't sweat a lot at all; it just seems to stick to me. So, I'm not stressing the weight gain at all. It'll come off; it's all good.

I have been trying to figure out why it's so hard for me to stay in healthy mode when Paul's home. I think it's due largely to the fact that I don't see him for large chunks of the day and when he's home for the weekend he's not exhausted like during the week. Therefore, I like to do special things...cook big breakfasts, go out to dinner, have snacks while we watch movies or play video games. Unfortunately, all those goodies add up every weekend and it sabotages the hard work I've put in during the week. I seriously need to formulate a plan to help me with that. Fool proof snacks for at home, "safe" things to order from restaurants. I'll try to work on that this week.

Paul's birthday is on Saturday. I'm planning on getting him one of the black and red Nintendo DS's because it turns out that as much as he bitched about not liking hand-held games, he loves mine! His favorite colors are black and red so it's awesome that they've got one with both colors. I'm also looking in to getting him the two Transformer games for it because he's expressed interest. Don't know if I'll be able to find them though. He's not big in to sweets, so I can forgo a cake (thank goodness!) but I may take him to the Thai restaurant we haven't tried yet. Either way, I'm not going to stress a birthday meal...life's too damned short to miss out on a good birthday dinner every once in awhile!

I do have some semi-stressful stuff coming up soon. I'm hoping I can get through it without eating the world or killing somebody. June 6th my mother in law has to go to Las Vegas for either surgery prep or surgery (I haven't gotten all the details yet). She wants me to either go with her to help her drive or take care of her ward Jerry while her and my father in law are gone. I hate driving in Vegas, and I don't particularly like Jerry. BUT, I promised I'd do one or the other and I can't flake. I don't mind helping but everything is a drama with my in laws and I'm not really looking forward to it. Around the same time, my Aunt, Uncle and cousin are coming for a visit. I abhor my Aunt and don't really even want to visit. She's an uppity snob of a woman and I seriously believe that she must shit exotic flowers from the rain forest...nothing else would be good enough for her! My cousin is a sweetheart, and I can take or leave my Uncle...he stays quiet (probably to avoid my Aunts wrath) so I barely even know him! They're coming the week of my Dad's birthday, which is the same week my mother in law is going to Vegas...argg! I'm stressed that my Mom is going to get on her high and mighty horse (what better way to battle her sister but to play that she's better?!) and be pissed that I'm helping out my mother in law during that time. My mom isn't a fan of my mother in law (they've fought a LOT in the past 12 years) and every time I do something for my mother in law my mom takes it as a personal attack. Cross your fingers that I get out alive!

Ugh, anyway. Sorry for the long rant. My family is my biggest stress factor and I pretty much like to avoid even spending time with them. If I could hang with my step dad the entire time and help him work on the house or fix a friggin' car, I'd be thrilled, but chances are I'll be stuck shmoozing with the female side of my family. Blah.

Nothing really to do with dieting or losing weight, but it's certainly a big stresser for me!

Edited to remove some personal family details. I have some snoopy family members and the last thing I need is to deal with any backlash from someone reading something that might piss them off.

And it shows- Weigh in Tuesday

Hey ladies! Sorry I haven't been around to update, but I've been spending a lot of time with my husband - and trying to stay cool! The temps have risen so much in the past few days that it's crazy. It's only going to be 97° today and I was actually happy to hear that! Luckily, tomorrow and Thursday are supposed to be a lot cooler and we have a good chance of rain...I'm crossing my fingers!

So, as for weight...I gained 2.6 pounds this week. I haven't been following a schedule, exercising or eating well so I expected it. I'll get back on track soon though.

Off to visit everyone now...hope y'all had better results than me!

Tired

I'm tired today. I finally got my craft room cleaned up and though I'm proud of it and happy it's done, I'm sore and cranky. Sometimes I just get sick of the everyday hustle, you know? I have it easy by a lot of peoples standards...I don't have to work, we don't have kids and most of the time my husband is great. I hate days like this where I'm in a funk for no reason. I hope it gets better as the day goes on!

Yesterday was a meh day food wise. I did well all day, until dinner (like normal!) We had barbeque chicken, some amazing cheddar bread and I ate cherry cheesecake for dessert. I should have known better, if for no other reason than I haven't been eating much sugar the past couple of weeks and the cheesecake sent me spinning. I was physically sick to my stomach after I ate it and need to remember that next time I decide to indulge in something that I know I shouldn't be eating.

We're coming up on the weekend again and this one's going to be a little different. My husband has been working a lot of overtime lately and he's burned out. He does forklift driving and loads custom made patio doors onto trucks. Most of these are 200+ pounds apiece and some of the bigger customs are 400 pounds. He loads most of the 200 lb. ones by himself. He managed to get his boss to allow him to take a couple days of his vacation, despite being their busy season. He needs it and I think it'll do a world of good, but it also means that he'll be home to throw off my schedule (sounds awful, doesn't it?!) I don't care though, I'll be happy to have him home and maybe he can go back to work next week feeling a little fresher. It does mean that I probably won't update much, but I will if I can, just to keep me honest.

Another good day

Yesterday was another good day. I didn't eat much during the day, but I made a really nice stir fry with chicken breast, broccoli, cauliflower, mushrooms, water chestnuts, red peppers and corn with a few onigiri thrown in for starch for dinner. (That was a long list!)

I'm still cleaning my craft room...there finally seems to be an end in sight...I hope to get it done in the next day or two; I'm tired of looking at it.

Yesterday was good

I had a really good day yesterday. I think it's because I was running all over the place and didn't have time to think about junk food or boredom eating. I spent the majority of yesterday organizing and cleaning and dusting, something that's in the cards for today as well. I made a huge dent in the mess that is my craft room and three bags of junk later, it's a little less cluttered. After Paul got home we went on the hunt for some new jeans for him since he tore the right cuff completely off his last wearable pair. We found two pretty much brand new pair at a local thrift store and I found three new tops for myself. I love thrift store shopping SO MUCH. It only set us back $9.50!

We also did a little grocery shopping and I picked up a few things I've never tried. I got a Lean Cuisine roasted chicken and garlic pizza and it was amazing. I also tried a Smart Ones broccoli and cheddar potatoes yesterday...that one was mediocre. I've never bought a "diet" type microwave meal before in my life and figured they all would taste like crap lol. The pizza was great though. Jenn, I know you like the paninis, does anyone else have a favorite diet type tv dinner? It was super handy to toss the pizza in for dinner last night because by the end of the day I was exhausted. They're not something I'll eat regularly because I like to cook and usually have the time, but I'd like to stock up on a few for times like this when I'm on the run constantly and don't have the time or inclination to make a real meal.

I also picked up some whole wheat flour, "light" margarine and Altern (Walmart's brand of Splenda) so I can get to work on finding a good muffin/bread recipe. I'm also using the Altern in my coffee, which brings one of my giant sized cups of coffee from a nasty 340 calories to a modest 64. I bought a ridiculously expensive tin of stevia tablets over the weekend to try but they were terrible.



They're supposed to taste similar to sugar, only sweeter but all I know is that it tasted like ass. Cloyingly sweet aftertaste ass. I put two tablets in my coffee day before yesterday and when I tried it, it was strange. At first, it tasted like bitter coffee that I hadn't added any sweetener to. Then AFTER that taste came this really overpowering sweetness akin to Sweet & Low. I like my coffee and sugar and cream to meld into a creamy sweet caffeinated dream, not break up the flavor to the point of making me want to throw the entire cup out the window. So...despite my "raving" review...anyone like this stuff? Anyone want a 100 pack tin with three taken out of it? (Two for the coffee...one living under my stove)

But yeah...yesterday was nice. I under ate, but it probably made up for the chinese I ate the day before.

Not a bad start, despite a few bad choices

Despite eating crap during the weekend, cheating on my second day and eating chinese food last night, I'm down 5.2 pounds. Not bad at all! That's 20% of my first goal in a week.

I'm holding a little water on right now, just like Jenn said I would. Other than that, I think that I worked off my meal yesterday with all I did. I kept working until almost 1:00 this morning and once my head hit the pillow I don't remember anything that happened until 9:00 this morning. Ugh...I'm not even halfway done. Oh well *sigh*. I guess that'll just be my exercise for the next couple of days.